Current Mood:  indifferent
Current Music: What a difference a day makes
The last time i chatted with elaine i told her of my three fears . These werent one year old baggages.. but it's been ongoing ever since the time i decided to keep a journal.
At the start of this year though.. I have decided to take hold of my life (is it part of being TWENTY?) To not be at the backseat anymore. More or less i have come to know that i have a sense of control in some aspects of my existence. I could possibly change the gear, whether slow paced or go into the fast lane. I could even clean the front window so i can see clearly what's ahead of me and not focus on the rear view mirror, always looking back in the past. And that life presents us with a thousand of opportunities it is up to us whether we recognise this and eventually what we chose to do about it.
Happily two of my fears have been dealt with. What a relief. All i could do now is ... NOTHING. For the first time i dont have to be the one waiting and assuming. In a way.. it's not up to ME anymore. I have made a decision and had carried it and really... there's NOTHING for me to do but pray and hope for the best. :-)
JUMP MY DEAR says jojie, pertaining to my other dilemma. WE'll see jie.. we'll see. AS for now.. id just savour every moment with him. Thank you! :-D | 
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